32 and counting

Ok, so it has been almost a month since my last post. My lack of writing, just like the rest of the things in my life, is a result of not following through. I have tried and tried and tried to become a more responsible person, its just not in the cards for me. I cant even finish a prescription of antibiotics for Christ's sake. I am kidding you not.

I have spent many an hour trying to understand myself, to no avail I might add. We women are ofter referred to as complicated creatures. I dont particularly think of myself as complicated, I like to think that my simplicity is what confuses me most. I am emotionally balanced (my husband begs to differ), relatively level headed, fair, generous with my love, outgoing most of the time and so on and so forth with all of my admirable qualities. Ha ha ha! Modesty is a virtue, I know, and I am modest believe it or not. The reason that I am pointing some of these things about myself is that I am certain that very few people will ever read this blog. And the name of the blog is self explanatory, it is more for my benefit then for anyone's entertainment.

I am flawed like the rest of the world, in more ways then one. I refuse to let people see me cry, I dont share my feelings easily and I never, ever forgive people for their wrong doings. I dont mean that I wont forgive someone for stepping on my toe, or even ruining a valuable piece of property, I mean moral offenses against me and those I care about. Having said that I don't dwell on my past, having written those offenders out of my life and my mind. I refuse to let my past control where I am today. Have I let my past control my present, it would have been a pittiful place to be.

Where I am today, it a decent place to be and at the ripe age of 32, a perfect place to stop, take a deep breath and find out who I am. I suspect this journey will be a bumpy one with alot of stops along the way.

Next stop.............................